Well, howdy doo day. It's been a few years. Shit got weird.
Let's be real. Shit was never normal in my life.
Let's break it down
Timeline style
You have to appreciate chronological order
Let's begin with 2013.
June 2012: Came back to Arkansas from New Orleans, decided to dip out to Never Never land. Threw on a wig and worked at Hooters. Schiller House times
July-December 2012: Moved to Costa Rica, befriended payasos at Parque Morazon, developed plan to eventually become an expat, befriended graffiti artists Pain and Piloy, somehow got involved with a group of breakdancers
December-April 2013: Came back to Arkansas, yeeted the fuck out and moved to Mexico. The teaching program was a fraud. I somehow became a university professor after getting TEFL Certification online. Dated a marimba player that got me involved in santisima muerte. Idiot from TJ stalked me so I dipped to Cordoba, Veracruz. Eventually came home.
May 2013-July 2013: Worked at a Mexican restaurant in Arkansas. Tried to reconnect with people, failed, got a cat, moved back to New Orleans. Joined a hip hop crew, became a pedicab driver, and worked selling scooters and 4 wheelers by Desire housing projects. Had a summer fling with a Honduran guy. He locked me in a trailer and a bunch of Vatos Locos got me out and I dumped him.
August-February 2014: Returned to college, found out I was pregnant. Took 21 credit hours to graduate on time. Lots of vomiting and public transportation. Had a burglary, couch hopped, moved to St. Thomas housing projects.
February 2014: Baby daddy returned after finding out it was a boy. Made me form enemies in east New Orleans unknowingly by driving him away after he stole coke.
February-April 2014: Lots of abuse while in school taking 18 credit hours through 2nd and 3rd trimester. Kids dad stole my car frequently forcing me to walk everywhere. Beat every night, severe mental abuse. Bad times.
May 2014: Jove David was born. Finals completed. Accepted into Teach for America. Kids father locked Jove and I in car for 5 hours on Mothers Day, jumped out of the car because I couldn't stop crying. Last time I saw my kid's father.
June-August 2014: Happy baby times plus issues with mom overstepping boundaries trying to help and escalating trauma. She moved in against my will. Was too weak to argue. Started therapy.
August-December 2014: Volunteer teaching assistant, full time student, translator, and severely traumatized individual. Fights with mom escalated and she left, sister and her boyfriend arrived.
January-May 2015: Sisters boyfriend was a drug addict, frequently scared the shit out of him and let him know my level of crazy to protect son. Sister was unaware. Still tolerating too much shit due to severe past abuse. Moved to San Antonio.
May-July 2015: Befriended tattoo artists and breakdancers in San Antonio. Began trying to date despite it being a terrible idea.
July-February 2016: Job got very stressful, harrassment, administration wasn't helpful, was failing with punishment in class due to trauma and fear from severe abuse. Fired from first job out of college, returned to therapy. Diagnosed with Depression, Anxiety, and PTSD.
February-July 2016: Began mixing with an interesting fellow who had way to much lean and would take me to Fogo de Chao for lunch. Somehow was oblivious that he was a dealer. Ironically, he got me a job as a bilingual call representative. Simultaneously, pursued my teaching certification independently away from Teach for America.
August 2016- May 2017: Taught at a failing school, no time for friends or extracurriculars. Left to change careers after therapy finally regained confidence. Therapist let me know I was mistreated in job and needed work life balance.
May-July 2017: Moved to Arkansas with mom, previous issues from New Orleans still caused problems, got accepted into MBA program. Immediately got a job at the University. Took summer courses. I caught a bobcat during this time. Still mad that I didnt keep it.
August-December 2017: Full time MBA student and working as graduate assistant part time and in current job part time. Confidence built due to high scores and teamwork in class. Felt like I finally met people with my level of internal drive. Severe issues with mom pushing boundaries, moved out to get away.
January-June 2018: Full time student, full time at current job. Slowly piecing life together at 25 to figure out how normal people live. Began to get more involved in state parks. Got a new car.
July 2018: Break from MBA. Took my son to Blastball, became his soccer coach, more state park adventures with son. Working full time and not stressed.
August-November 2018: Toxic relationship that I believe was necessary to remove the last bit of self loathing from my system. Coaching soccer. Plans to move back in with mother and grandmother but Granny died.
November-February 2019: Went slightly insane for a bit and fell into a dark place after mental abuse and granny dying. Found out how to get a home, bought a home, applied to get my son into a highly rated charter school. Switched daycares, lots of initial expenses. Got 2 puppies.
March-May 2019: Still recovering from a lot of initial expenses. Son accepted into good school. Began budgeting and renovating. Trying to get back to stable place. Grandfather died. Quit drinking, quit smoking, quit caffeine, quit fast food.
And y'all wonder why I'm crazy the greatest thing that Arkansas ever produced.